It is me...

As we sat in the darkened room, the music played, the slide show began and I became overwhelmed with emotion.  Moving across the screen were the images of my angel with her beautiful blonde hair and those stunning blue eyes.  Formal pictures, sassy pictures, cheerleading pictures and golf pictures....Kelleigh's senior pictures.   Together Dan, Kelleigh and I looked at each image, picked our favorites and considered who would get which pose...the cheerleader, the golfer, the sassy girl with jeans, a flannel shirt and cowboy boots on top of the cab of an old pick up truck,  the aspiring star posed in the geometric prop or the formal close up.  As we made our decisions, the studio representative advised that the photographer had not done his touch up work yet...yes, evidence of the AVMs was apparent in the photographs.    I looked to Kelleigh and she to me...."mom, that is who I am...there isn't a picture of me anywhere that the AVMs aren't there...it is me." My eyes welled with tears...yes, Kelleigh it is you, beautiful you.  You who are so confident and so courageous.  You who knows  that no matter what the AVMs have done to you, they don't define the whole you, they are just a part of you.  A part of you that you have handled your entire life with such determination and grace.  I love you with all of my heart sweet angel, you inspire me every day and I will never quit fighting for the answers.
Mom